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Thoughts




Philosophy, theology, thoughts and musings.
Most of my thoughts and "philosophical" writings are in Swedish.
You can find the Swedish version of this page on the Swedish section of this website HERE.


However I have just started with some English thoughts below...


MY FIRST THOUGHT:
MY THOUGHTS ABOUT THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE &
WRITING AS A PERSON WITH ENGLISH AS A SECOND LANGUAGE

Hopefully I will find the courage to write more English documents of my beliefs and philosophies soon too.
I'm just unsure about grammar and stuff, since English isn't my first language.
But maybe grammar doesn't necessarily says everything about how valid a persons thoughts are in writings,
and maybe people can see the thoughts for what they are instead of just see the mistakes in how I express myself in text form.

The truth is that I'm only self-thought in most of my knowledge of the English language. I didn't go to school much due to mental illness.
So I hadn't the opportunity to learn by professionals, like teachers and professors.
I guess that's why I'm so freaking unsure about how I spell and how I write, and the greatest fear of them all; my GRAMMAR.
And that kills my passion for expressing myself through written words.
Because I don't always do music and arts, even though music and arts is my "main fields".

I do write poetry in English, and that's because it's somewhat easier to express myself in that form. It's a work of art.
And poetry has like a "free pass" to break the laws of grammar sometimes, for the sake of the artistic expression.
That's how I "dare" to write English poems, rather than English documents about my thoughts and philosophic texts.

But wait, isn't this entire text I'm writing right now like a small text document of thoughts;
thoughts about how to overcome the fear of being bad on grammar? Well, maybe I can let it go now. The fear I mean.
I have already written a document about thoughts now, withought realizing. And more will come!



CALLED BY THE NAME OF A QUEER GOTH
I'm still the same
Quite whimsical
Still that curious thing
Still the same
Called by the name
Of a queer goth.

Clearly the one
Quite disappointing
That whimsical thought
Distinctly dark and somber
Still the same
The one to blame
Wherefore I'm called by the name
Of a queer goth.

It's me, you'd see, even before
Peeking through the door,
It's me you are looking for
I know who I am;
I'm aware of it all.

Quite hopeless
Still not very amusing
Still the same
Called by the name
Of a queer goth.



© Tricio Johansson